So, it’s time to talk. 2025 has been a real humdinger. First let me start with, this a very passionate writing, as I am going thru hell. Please forgive my typoes and incorrect spellings. It is quite a teary eye moment and day. Gathering the strength, and incredibly honest moment. Please forgive me.

I find writing, singing, puzzle solving, or doing creative things, a way to release acute anxiety energy. So please bear with me. Thank you for reading, and your patience.

Do you know why I write? To tell stories to pass on, so we may learn from one another. Grow. For me, life is meant to grow and be shared. To learn. The good, the bad, the great, the ugly, the sorrow, the pain, the joy, and the happiness. We learn. We evolve. We grow.

Whether alone (no one is ever alone, unless they CHOOSE to be), or, on a pen and paper (or type, you are not alone), or on a stage in front of thousands (or even singing in the shower), or a platform in front of many (which may feel really lonely, many artists sing about that). Standing in front of people, or being known, or famous, may feel incredibly lonely. But, you are not alone.  Life, and living is meant to be shared. No entity is alone. Cases and points, trees and mushrooms, cuddlefish, and now we know even sharks, Orca, Lion, and more Apex.. Apex creatures, are not only incredibly intelligent, but they thrive in communities, and seek to build communities. Not even hierarchy, which is phenomenal. I mean there is always a queen. But, it is about the collective. Dolphins and Whales are exhibiting this behavior not just in being the collective, but protecting other collectives. This folks is not only evolution, but, let’s face it, they are way smarter than us on every level, evolution.

Thank you for letting me go off on a tangent. Ya know it takes a lot to scare me. I mean a lot. But, tonight I saw again, just how fragile the brain is.

People often speak of the mind. They seldom speak of the mind when it disassociates from the body and the brain. There are different reasons why, how? when? Induced? Created? Persistent? Time catching up?

What if your physical body is made of a 2.0 of you? But, your brain checks out and says ‘nope’. I won’t, or ‘can’t’ right now, or ‘soon’, or ‘who knows’?

You rode me hard like a wet horse, and I am not playing with you right now. What if your brain checks out? In midlife? Meanwhile, your body says I am vibrant, and 2.0. How do you find the connect.

Did I tell you this week sucked?

I know the brain has selective memory. There is so much we do not know. The brain is as foreign to us as the ocean is vast. How do you entice or trigger a memory? A real memory? How do you get out of somewhere between a coma, and reality, back to a cognizant stage. Out of the wake dream stage. What is that? It isn’t delusional. Because that would imply you are lying willingly to yourself. So what is that?

I cried tonight, because it is too close to home.

When you have seen something, over and over again, you can only pray for a miracle. But somehow, in your gut, you know that person has to fight, and fight hard, or you know where this goes, where do you go?

Tomorrow is another day. Tomorrow, I will give them reason to fight. The sense of smell.

I’ll keep you posted. {{{HUGS}}}